Wishing I was fucking dead right now
Screw fucking life it’s so pointless and I’m done trying to be happy bc anything and everyone who makes me happy gets taken away from me and I’m sick of it I can’t deal with it any more I’m done …. I can’t feel the pain of wat I’ve lost if i dont care ….if i don’t enjoy wat I have I will nvr miss it so I’m just done feeling
I feel so bad… I try so hard to please everyone and to live by the rules … But I’m getting so sick ….so sick of everything …sick of life itself and I’m trying so hard not to just say fuck it all bc I need to stay strong bc I can do it … I won’t fall…. but u don’t kno how much I want to fall and just keep falling …. Falling for ever and never getting back up …it’d be so easy to just fall
~.~I don’t know who I am …..What I want……Or where I’m going …………all I know is that I do believe the world in general is weird and that no one really seems to notices…nothing is normal~.~
I wonder seriously n honestly wat type of person am I …. How do I appear to u? …. Wat am I like? … Am I really how I think I am or am I who I hate? … Won’t u please tell me …. I want to kno… How the world views me…. Am I nice? Am I fake? Am I pretty? Am I annoying? Am I smart? Do I listen well? Do I over react? Am i fun? Do I make people laugh?….. Who really cares about me? … Would they miss me when I’m gone…. Will anything really change with out me? Have I made any sort of impact on anyone? …. How many people have I hurt? Have I healed? Have I lost.., have I found? …. Will anybody step up n tell me the truth… Or will they just continue to whisper behind my back leaving me in the dark of my own demeanor …. Forever wondering ….thinking … Waiting……..